Longing for Fulluency

I need to feel fulluent — it’s not a misspelling of fluent. I need to feel full in a language. And I am not. I don’t remember the last time I’ve felt fulfilled in one language, that it was enough and I was enough in that language. My mind joggles several of them simultaneously in a day, while my deepest silences have no language; because I don’t reach that depth in any language.

I long for fulluency

I long for feeling full in a language, instead of feeling hollowed out in many halves.

Full feel

Rayures by Sirma Bilge©